Everyone mis-steps sometimes

"I used to be someone better back then"

The year has begun, and all the old feelings of excitement are coming back, but not staying for that long. With two senior teams, the RA job, Champ, and Study abroad recruitment running my life, I have little time left over to myself. The little time I do have I spend trying to keep my sanity, knowing that it is close to slipping. I find myself quite conflicted most of the time these days and I can't really resolve it. I can only hope that as time passes the conflicts kind of just smooth out. I find myself aching to get away, to get back to something familiar that I can't reach back to.


I can't explain why I am even writing this except for the one fact that I miss you. You visited for only minutes over a month ago, but I can still remember the sinking feeling inside when I saw you. We seem to have completely lost touch with each other and I hate it. I want to get back to the place where we were both happy, but I don't know if there is any going back to that. I don't want to just read about you in passing here and there anymore....

I miss you.


anyways, that's all i can get out right now.
not sure if you still read this, but I hope you do,
cause I still read yours.