Update

So I haven't written in a while, but that is do to many different reasons. The reasons come from different people and for different reasons, but all cause me to be unable to concentrate to the point where I can write. Even now, Basshunter is making it a bit hard to write. The songs just make me remember Burlington and make me long to be home. I haven't been back there in almost a month now and it is starting to show.

I was put under observation as I like to call it by a certain group of people. This group was concerned for my well being due to the writing that I have done on here, and almost made me so that I never wanted to write again. I fought the urge to delete everything on here because it isn't exactly for others, it is for me to reflect on. I still am not exactly sure how they traced things down and found out that it was mine, but they did, and there is no looking back from that. I'm not going to change how I write, and I'm not going to censor myself just because people are watching me. If I did this, I wouldn't be myself and it would be a regret, which I never want to have. But anyways, enough on that.

I had trouble about a month back, just before I went to Burlington, and it was one of the more serious ones that I have had. I had no idea my body would react the way it would, but it did, and I dealt with it. I went to Burlington, I took in the fresh air and the familiar scenery and everything just went away. I can't exactly put it into words, but everything became clear for a moment in time. I wish I could have that experience now, especially since finals are coming up, but I will make it through none-the-less. I have been trying to finish up on things with each of my classes, but it is a bit difficult with the amount of work that all the classes seem to be throwing on all at once. I will make it through, but the next two weeks will be a hell of a ride.

This last week was Thanksgiving Break, and I spent it up in Canada. I did this due to personal reasons, one of which was that it would have cost almost 450 dollar to get me home, or half as much but 24+ hours both ways. I would have loved to have seen my parents, my brother, my dog, my cat, but I can survive 3 more weeks without them. With the last 3 weeks coming up, I can truly see the end of this journey, and I can strive to reach for it with every day that goes by.

The week before Thanksgiving was MiGS. The Montreal International Game Summit. This was a perfect time for me to meet up with some of the industry professionals from the Montreal region, but it turned out a bit worse than I had expected. I learned plenty from some of the speakers, and I did get to meet a couple different people from different companies, but at the same time, I found myself slightly disgusted with some of the points of view that different people in the industry had on games. Sitting through the last keynote speaker was when this truly came out and I found myself wanting to walk out on the whole thing. I was sitting in the 3rd or 4th row, so I couldn't get up out of respect for others, but the speaker, Jonathon Blow, was just such an errogant bastard in my opinion that I couldn't take anything he said seriously. I guess everyone will have dissenting views and ideas concering ideas, and that is one things that people have to get used to on a day to day basis.

I have found myself falling in and out of relationships with a bunch of different people, and that was what I was most afraid of when I came up here. I knew that being away from others from any sort of extended amount of time would hurt any relationship that I had gone to build. I really hate the fact that I have to go through theses highs and lows with people, but I can't really do anything with a 2+ hour barrier between myself and them. I want to make everything ok, and I believe that next semester when I get back I will make it true, but only for a certain amount of them. There will still be certain friends that are farther out than 2 hours that I will not be able to make everything ok with until a certain time later on in life. I hate to have to wait for this time, but sometimes there is nothing you can do, and even though I hate being helpless, sometimes waiting is the best action in order to get certain things done.

With next semester approaching, I find myself in a new position at Champlain College. I will be returning to the college as an RA and will be in charge of Pearl Hall. I find this to be a great oppurtunity and will taking everything out of it that I can in order to gain any extra experience that I can in life.

I believe that is all for now, I can find no more to write about at the current point in time. To anyone that doubts how I am, I am fine, please leave me be, I need no assistance from the outside, this is because I already have so much help from the friends that I trust so dearly.

Back to canada, back to the place that I must call my residence for the next 6 and a half weeks. I have found comfort and a family that I hadn't seen in too long. The time I had here was completely worth it, but was not long enough. I could have used a couple more days to get to see everyone that I wanted to, but I will just have to wait. Every minute I spend here is a minute that reminds me of why I love it here so much. The air is different, the feeling is different, the atmosphere and the people are different. Just breathing it in makes everything lighter. Tommorow I dive right back into school work. I will manage everything and hopefully can run through the rest of this semester without any incident. In two weeks I will have visitors for MiGS and hopefully that should be enough to get me the rest of the way. The impromptu trip back to Burlington may happen if needed.

Nothing more for now