Things Are Happening

Well, I'm not really sure how much you're looking to find out, but I'm just gonna lay it all out there. I am currently working for a company in Albany NY called Vicarious Visions. We are ramping down from our current title and my contract will be running out at the end of this week. Our current title is Guitar Hero 6 for the Wii and should be out in a month or two. I am currently only a Quality Assurance tester, which means I get to play the game until I break it, and then help the developers fix the breaks. I love going into my job and I love the atmosphere. I am currently unsure of how things are going to go in the future, but I am staying in Albany and hoping to hear that I have got a new contract in the next month or so.

I graduated with little to my name from Champlain in the way of academics, but I feel that I did everything I could have in my time there. I miss everyone terribly but I am glad that I have found my own path. I truly felt proud with my parents at my graduation, even though looking around me everyone else seemed to have some sort of cord or academic achievement. I am now looking back at those that I graduated with, and straight out of school, only 3 of us got jobs that were relative to our major. Being one of those three has been a struggle. I can still remember the nights that I would spend filling out numerous applications just to hope that I would get a response. I feared that I would not have a job and that I would be slightly lost out on my own. I kept pushing through though, and here I am, in a starting point of the career I am hoping to advance in. This last 2 and a half months I have been working night shift which means that I go in to work at 3:30 p.m. and get out at 12:15 a.m. So, basically it has been hard to really keep up much of a social life with the job that I have taken. I am hoping for a better shift next time around though.

I am incredibly happy for you that you graduated so high in your class. I am not really surprised though, because I've always viewed you as such a smart girl. I truly believe that you can move out into your own career and succeed at it, all you need to do is take the first step. I was terrified to take it, but you can't let fear hold you back. You have to keep pushing forward.

With my job ending here at the end of the week, I am not really sure what I will be doing. The rent on my apartment is paid up for the next two months, so I will probably be hoping for some sort of call back from the company. I will be also working on some side projects in order to try to use them as a moving up in the company.

I can honestly say for once that I kind of miss home. I have yet to spend more than a week home in almost two years now, and I kind of feel like it is something I should be doing soon. At the same time, I feel that I need to accomplish more before I go back. While it is true that I will have my name on a big name game by the end of the year, I still think that I should accomplish more in order to truly make the people at home proud of me and truly take my decision in career serious.

My parents have gotten a new puppy in the last year which is incredibly cute. She is a corgi and is almost a year old now. While she is a small dog, she is incredibly energetic and love playing whenever I get home. It is another reason I miss home as well.

This last week I went to a pig roast in PA with a bunch of kid from school. Sean, Asian Chris, Jordan, Ben, and a handful of others were all in attendance. It was a nice getaway to just relax, let go of some tension, and to catch up with some people that I have barely talked to in the last couple months. The week before that I got a chance to shoot up to Burlington for one night of the 4th. I was able to sit on the lake and watch fireworks with a couple of the guys and forget about anything other than the bursting lights in the sky. While walking around town and going to a bar later on, I had people I barely knew coming up to me and saying hi, which was comforting to know that people hadn't forgotten about me, no matter how well I knew them.

And, well, here's the real kicker. I spent six months in a relationship with a girl I met over thanksgiving break at home. She was a friend of my brother's girlfriend and at the time I really had nothing going for me. I was happy to be with someone but it always felt like there was something missing. We kept things going for a 6 months in a long distance relationship. She came up to Burlington and spent spring break with me and the rest of the guys. It was enjoyable at the time but....ya. During the last week of classes she broke up with me because I wasn't close enough. Seems she felt that I should have given up on my dreams to move back home. I haven't talked to her since even though she swears we will talk some day.

You mention that it seemed that I had moved on. I'm not going to lie, I really wanted it to seem that way since you still seemed so interested in you know who. I didn't want to show you that I was jealous. And now, I don't want to tell you how jealous I am, but I guess that should have already been apparent.

I am choosing to believe that I will see you again, and that it's not a question of if, but only when. I am glad you got the chance to respond. I was starting to feel like you maybe weren't going to. I truly do miss you.